Author, Musician, Engineer, Lover


James Bond walks into a bar…

… there, 65-years old, he meets a hot brunette, 40-years his junior, dressed like she just came from a cocktail party. Fitting, it is, because that’s how James Bond always dresses when undercover. After a couple of drinks, and a few smooth words… “Bond… James Bond”, they go up to his hotel room and bang. The only reason this story plays well in film is because it is utter fantasy. Read More

An Open Letter to the Survivors of Waco, 30 years later

Gaslighting. It is what my book is about, and what this website is about. And Waco is a perfect example of “Religious Gaslighting”. So having just watched Netflix’s latest, of many documentaries, Waco American Apocalypse, I feel compelled to speak out. I’ll be frank, I fucking hate gaslighting, and I hate cults. I have to say that two of the characters interviewed throughout the new documentary really rubbed me the Read More

Gaslighting in Medicine – Cancer Scams

Recently I lost a family member to cancer. Cancer is a horrible, horrible disease. I lost my father to cancer, an aunt (more of a sister), and now a well-loved cousin aged just 41. On top of that I have watched many friends and family members tough-it-out through chemotherapy, thankfully surviving, but enduring painful recoveries from surgeries, amputations, other procedures. Whereas many survive cancer, the experience is often traumatic and Read More

Does Someone with Borderline Personality Disorder Actually “Love” You?

I have dwelled upon the psychology of my (former) best friend for more than a year now. As part of the process of revising my book, I sought out other people online, specifically, based on the types of personality disorders they are diagnosed with… always curious… Do I see Inari in this person? Needless to say, I found a TON of correlations between Inari and people using #borderlinepersonalitydisorder or #bpd Read More

3rd Encounters of the Close Kind

In my estimation, “Lynn” doesn’t have much time to live. Maybe a year. When I met her, a year ago, whereas she clearly had an alcohol problem, she seemed considerably more full of life, but I currently worry that she is in the end stages of alcoholism disease. Alcohol will kill you if you drink enough of it. Your internal organs, particularly your liver, will simply quit and die. She Read More

Where is the line between “abuse” and “reactive abuse”

One of the fundamental paradoxes I have been struggling with lately has been how my own mental health pertains to abuse vs “reactive abuse”. “Abuse” is pretty commonly understood to be one person committing acts of physical, mental, or emotional harm to another person. But less commonly known is “reactive abuse”. “Reactive Abuse” is where one person drives another person to their breaking point for the purpose of making the Read More

I’ve joined a group for sufferers of Histrionic Personality Disorder

Although I do no have an official diagnosis (diagnosis will take time), I joined a facebook group for HPD suffers. Whereas I, up until this point, befriended all kinds of people in groups and on TikTok relating to Borderline Personality Disorder in order to see if I could find correlations between their behaviors and Inari’s behavior from my book (and found tons and tons of correlations)… I never really stopped Read More

Did Yuki really share ALL of this writing with Inari as it was written?

As you may or may not have read in my book, “How to Sacrifice Your Lover”, it is revealed early on that Yuki is sharing the book with Inari as it is written, chapter by chapter. But why would Yuki share things with Inari that were critical of her? Did Yuki really share all of these things? Well… whereas Yuki was hungry for for Inari to understand him completely, and Read More

A deeper dive into “Luna and the Destroyer”

If you’ve read my book, “How to Sacrifice Your Lover”… you’ll recall that the main character, Yuki, is working on an epic piece of music that he can’t seem to finish. The piece of music is a real thing, and unfortunately… still unfinished. Yuki describes it as a “concept album” that “starts off sad, then just goes downhill from there”…. the goal being to make the worlds saddest and most Read More

Minor Incidents of Gaslighting that we Experience Every Day, and Even Encourage

Gaslighting is more than just a simple lie. I first heard about gaslighting when a friend of mine pointed out to me that I was a victim of this gross form of psychological abuse. Some people understand it to be one person trying to convince another person that they’re crazy by simply saying “you’re crazy, you need therapy”. But it is NOT that. Gaslighting is a spooky sort of emotional/psychological Read More